Well the smart ass statement “don’t burn your bridges…” is possibly a lie! The call I received from a previous employer turned out to be another slap in the face! I’m beginning to think companies are no different than people…maybe they are a one celled organism…hmm…..
The call I received was actually from a new “HR” person that I hadn’t met because he was hired not very long ago. During that call I was led to believe that I was hired….start Friday at 5 pm but you have an interview first on Tuesday morning. Shame on me…..I wasn’t prepared to answer “fluffy” questions that to be honest really couldn’t have revealed weather a person is a good employee or not. In fact I found them to be a little too personal for a job interview. Never the less I should have been ready for anything.
I did have a feeling as soon as I sat down that something wasn’t right. Quick look over the resume…no questions asked about previous employment/duties, work environment, etc. The young woman that was leading the interview really wasn’t into it. So…when we were done I asked the question, “Do I start Friday?” “Oh, well….we have had other interviews.” she replies. “We will call by the end of the day.” That was yesterday. SLAP! Seriously…that was just rude and uncalled for. I don’t know what happened but I can tell you I am not very happy. I didn’t call them…they called me. I’m sure there is more to it than what I know but if you want to play politics or whatever the reason play with someone else. Actually…don’t PLAY at all. Treat people fairly and respectfully. After all….there may be more people looking for work than there are jobs….but they are people. Possible business as well. Don’t forget…you too are the face of your business.
This was an experience that I won’t soon forget. Lesson learned.
So here I sit arguing with my Depression. Smacking myself for my lack of foresight. Now what do I do? Keep applying places and wait in terror for my next interview. Win the lottery? HA! Okay…maybe not that last part…but I can dream. I’ve been dealing with my depression for over 30 years and still have a hard time seeing past it. I’m constantly wondering “Am I being too sensitive?”, “Am I good enough?” “What the f*&% is the point?” Is this a “normal” way to feel/act? I don’t know. Do you?
It must be normal to feel bitter. Sometimes it seems like you work your butt off, take chances to improve yourself and your life but still it isn’t enough. Is it just a big lesson? When’s the exam? To be honest I’d like to write it and move on to the next lesson. I hope that it’s about something far more fun and interesting. Do I wish I was kayaking? HELL YES!
BECAUSE one day you will be unemployed and may need to go back! LOL!! I may be fortunate enough to have another job. One of my previous employers heard I was looking for a job and said …..(stroke my ego)… “She’s AWESOME!” Crossing my fingers as to what this will mean but it’s a good start.
I left there because times were getting skinny and they had to cut back hours. I lucked into my dream job at Sandcastle, gave my notice and started my adventure as a new manager. (Well…honestly there was a little more to it….but that obstacle is gone) Again…what’s my point? I actually have one this time. If you do your job, whatever it may be, to the best of your ability you will leave a lasting impression. It’s really not rocket science. During my time as a manager I learned that this lesson is not one that all people are capable of mastering. Enough said!
So….my fiddly, nervous fingers needed something to do! I went back to making my daughter one of these:
It’s a cellphone cozy. I created the prototype myself. So after carefully checking out my daughter’s cell I started a beautiful blue one using Bamboo. Soft!!! But I have ripped it out three times now. ARGH! Don’t you hate those weird type blocks?
Change of scenery so to speak…. thought I could use up the little ball of angora and the little ball of baby alpaca. But what to make with this orgasmic fibre? I have so little…enter THE ROSE:
I can’t wait to put it together….maybe.
Again another life change. I knew it was too perfect to last! The perfect job, Managing a restaurant six months of the year which required me to live at my trailer…on the lake. It was heaven!
So now I’m on the hunt for another job. It wasn’t my fault…I’m actually proud of the job I did. It is just a business decision that my employer had to make. No Sandcastle. Closed!
I am thankful for all the skills and experience I gained during my time at Sandcastle. Managing a staff of young people was quite an eye opener! But I did it…and had great staff as a result. Learning to let someone go was so hard but had to be done.
But now what? We have all been there…. how much of a change will we have to make? Kinda scary…thoughts like “there’s lots of jobs posted but Kellogg’s closed and everyone needs work….” go racing through my head. And I will miss jumping in the lake for a swim after work….and kayaking after work…etc…etc….
Finding a job….ohhh man. Sends a chill down my spine just typing those words. It really isn’t what you know but who ya know. I know…cliche but true! Or dumb luck…..and a lot of work and waiting…and waiting…. Have I depressed you enough? What’s my point? I don’t know…..it’s Day One of unemployment and a lot will change. Will my addiction to the lake kill me? Probly not….
Back soon to share some more manic ramblings of the unemployed but before I go check out my latest creation. A neck warmer made of Baby Alpaca and a little Angora. I call it Scottish Thistle…. reminded me of kayaking up the river in spring.
Let me know if you’re interested and I will share my pattern. It’s super simple…but the wool…ahhhhh